A Test

     I never enjoyed exams in school, did you? Obviously the pop quizzes were the pits, especially if you weren't caught up on class work or paying close attention. But even the tests you knew were coming, and especially the final exams were stressful.
     I was recently talking to my former Psychology professor about taking his tests, especially in Abnormal Psych. I read the material, talked about it in study groups, went over my notes, and when I read the test questions, thought: "Where did he get this? Have I been in outer space?" I had trouble recognizing what was important to know, I guess.
     I feel like I'm in another test of life. I've been through many already, and learned many life lessons. But as we step into another phase of Huntington's Disease, I've got a lot to learn.
     The biggest life lesson for all of us, and especially for us Codepedent Controllers, is letting go. So, I am going to be focusing on that today...just for today. Here are some affirmations and reminders I will be using:
---I am not God.
---I do not hold the power of life or death.
---I am so loved by God that He sings about me (Zeph. 3:17) I read this to Marvin yesterday.
---He knows me and Marvin better than anyone ever has or ever will.
---He keeps all my tears in a bottle; they are precious to Him.
---He knows what it's like to cry out to the Father with loud cries (Hebrews).
---He will be with Marvin and me .
and what He specifically told me once about TESTS:
---I know how to do that: take tests, go through tough stuff.
    Thanks, God. I'm counting on You!