I Am Not a Poet

     I am not a poet, but sometimes something comes to me, as it did this am. It's not super quality, but it is describing some of my journey. I hope it helps someone else.

I Almost Gave Up

I almost gave up
Before it was started
My mind told me, "Go,
You'll be broken-hearted."
I stayed.

I almost gave up
I just didn not feel it.
The struggle was hard,
And we just did not fit.
But I stayed.

I almost gave up
His addiction grew worse.
And I felt the shame,
Feeling I had been cursed.
Yet I stayed.

I couldn't give up
I'd made a commitment.
"Til death do us part,"
I said, and I meant it.
I stayed.

I couldn't give up
As disease reared it's head.
"In sickness or health,"
Are the words that I said.
I still stayed.

I've wanted to go
Many times, many ways.
I've cried out to God,
And He asked me to stay.
So I stayed.

I couldn't give up
I felt a new feeling.
God mended my heart
And brought me rich healing.
I will stay.

I wouldn't give up
I love him much more now
I'm finding the ways
To let God show me how
To stay.

I will not give up
I will stay til he's gone.
I'll trust in my Father
No matter how long.
I will stay.