Most of you have your Christmas trees up and decorated by now. Some have completed their shopping. Others have sent out cards, letters or e-greetings! Many are planning for company, cleaning house, purchasing food for Christmas dinner, practicing for church programs, and more.
It's another one of those years for me and Marvin. We will not be traveling, and our kids won't be here for Christmas. Phil and Carolyn, Caleb and Evelyn will come in January. I will miss not being with my kids on Christmas, but it's not really new. We've seldom spent Christmas together since everyone left home.
I plan to use this season to consider the upcoming year. There will be many changes in 2012. (I doubt if it's the end of the world, however!) I don't know exactly what will be happening---there will likely be some different kinds of work for me; I am struggling more with arthritis in my hands, which is limiting some things I can do for myself...I want to continue to play the piano, type, and crochet; taking care of my home is becoming more of a challenge and more expensive. I love living alone, but sometimes I wonder if it's really good for me. I get rather stuck in a rut, self-absorbed, and less pliable!
God seldom gives me details of my future ahead of time, but I feel a sense of unsettledness this year. I still have peace and contentment about God's leading, His presence, and His plans for me, but there's also an assurance that nothing stays the same. I don't know what that means. It's not foreboding I feel, but more like an excitement about what's going to change this year.
It reminds me of a very old song: "Many things about tomorrow, I don't seem to understand, but I know Who holds tomorrow, and I know Who holds my hand."
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